the start of something

I've embarked on a journey that I have been in the process of beginning for years. I have finally decided to take this seriously. Treat my own life as my own career. My business, my content, and of course my music. I have spent years and years building for other people. Putting tons of time and care into endeavors where it was never received the way I thought it should be.

I have such a love for what I do. I love putting my best foot forward in all that I do. Making my best effort as often as I can. I have given that energy to people that did NOT deserve it. All the while completely neglecting myself. Every time I went the extra mile for someone else, I was telling myself that I didn't deserve what I was giving. No longer.

Truth is, this isn't the real start. I've made attempts to take my music seriously in the past. I didn't take it THAT seriously. I made the music. That was about it. So what's different? I've been putting the pieces together day by day. A little bit of thinking there, some planning over here... Researching, reading, asking questions, trying things, failing... a lot. I've learned a lot more. I give myself credit for being ambitions but my younger goals were not genuine. They weren't of my own creation. But now? I am acting with intention. Moving with passion. Guided by inspiration and a call from deep within my soul.

So when I say this the start of something, I mean it's the start of the end of starting.

It's time I put myself first. I ought to give myself my best. What's there to lose?

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~Nyk